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Thursday, June 30, 2011

Blessings come from Rain Drops!!

Where in the world do I start? It has been quite an exciting 4 months!! The joy of knowing I am carrying my little miracle is always so breathtaking and amazing for me to think about! It also has taken me back to a lot of things God told me through this process. The number one thing was the dream Daniel had couple years ago that we had an egg and the Lord said we need to cover it! We believe that He meant prayer and not just by us but by ALL of you! I TRULY believe that we are finally at this point in our life of starting our little family because all of you have stood by us through all the tears and laughter and NEVER gave up on us! Thank you guys so much!

I truly believe Gods timing is perfect!!! I am so overjoyed with becoming a mommy! I look back on the 4 years of grieving and the pain we went through; every time we hit a dead end (or so we thought) I clearly remember the times I said I AM DONE! This pain is too much to handle. I don’t know if I can go on with this! WHY ME God? But my faith, my friends and family truly helped me stand through this storm! And I wouldn’t go back and change ANYTHING! It has strengthened my Faith in SO many areas! God showed us through ALL the hard times He NEVER Left us. He said Just be Still and KNOW I am God! “ FOR I KNOW THE PLAN I HAVE FOR U! Plans NOT to Harm you, but plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE!” Even though some days were harder to push through, I did and it was ALL worth it! And in a few months I will be able to hold my Special Gift that I have been waiting for!!! And that makes it all WORTH it!!

When we got to go into that doctor’s office for the first ultra sound to check for the heart beat the devil was trying to play a lot of mind games with me, reminding me of my past experience! But my mind was covered with his blood and I honestly went in there with such peace!!! When she pointed out the heartbeat on my little one it was the most amazing thing to see and the doctor said it was a very strong heart beat! And those are the words everyone wants to hear!! She gave me lots of pictures and brought so much joy to my heart!

July 9th we get to go and find out if our Special Gift will be a girl or boy. Yes, in our hearts we would like a baby girl! But honestly I don’t really care!!! It will be just as special and spoiled and loved just as much!!! As long as I have a healthy and strong baby it will be ALL good either way. I will keep all of you Posted!!

Before I close let me encourage you that whatever you are going through and no matter how long you have been going through it DON’T give up. The waiting period is a time to grow and trust and learn so much about Who Our God really is!! We have so much to learn about his faithfulness and love for us!! Stand on his word! Surround yourself with those that are positive and will be able to lift you up when you feel like you can’t lift your self up anymore! The prize at the end is SO worth it! Hang On!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

"He is an On Time God!!"

Wow!!!!! This one I am SUPER excited to write!!! On April 7th I heard the words I have been waiting to hear for 4 years!! For a few days I had some weird spotting and wasn’t sure what was up with that. I knew it was different and I have not ever experienced this. Last month they up my Clomid so I just thought the hormones were off a little, and was starting a period early. I called my doctor and they asked me to come in for blood work to rule out pregnancy, so they could do the normal procedure. I completed the blood work and when I called the next morning for the results, instead of the normal "negative" results, the voice on the other end says Well it is Positive!! Your pregnant! I kept repeating was are you sure? Really? Really? Really? WOW! Do you have the right persons information?? She just kept saying "yes really!" You are Angela Germolus right?? I said Yea that is Me!!! And if you can in envision when it really sunk in, all I could do it run out from where I was and scream to my friend in her office I am PREGNANT!!! We started to hug and scream!! And all at the same time I am still on the phone with my Doctor trying to talk to them! (hahahahaha)
One of the coolest parts about this was I didn’t even tell my husband that I was going in for blood work! So he had no idea! I talked with my friend and we decided to get him a cookie from our bakery and have them write on it “Soon to Be Daddy”. I wrapped up my pregnancy test and had him come to my work for lunch, and gave it to him in front of everyone! He was so shocked! I LOVED his reaction!
I want you all to know how overwhelmed and amazed at the support and love we have gotten since we found out our good news!! All the Facebook messages and texts and calls with prayers and such excitement and encouragement have meant SO much to us!! All of you guys have invested so much of yourself into my journey and I can not thank you enough!! God is TRULY an Amazing GOD! That has PERFECT Timing for EVERYTHING!
It has taken us 4 years to conceive again! We have stood on our faith and trusted that God knew what he was doing! He had us right where we needed to be! It was NOT an easy road and there were many many times we wanted to give up! But I truly believe that because of our faith and trust in God and ALL of you praying for us and truly standing in the gap for us has helped us so much!
All of this is still a little surreal to me and has not completely sunk in!! We are right now filled with so much excitement and nerves! We have to wait till April 28 to have our first ultrasound! And for all of you that know our story would know that 4 years ago I miscarried late in my first trimester when we went for our first ultrasound there wasn’t a heart beat detected. You can imagine our anxiousness and urgency of wanting to know our baby is ok!! We are Believing God got this and we are going to see that little heart beat and walk out of that room with HAPPY and JOYFUL Tears!! So I ask all of you to PLEASE PLEASE Stand in faith with us on April 28th!
I want to encourage all of you that have been praying for something in particular for many years! I know it is not easy and there are days where you truly sees Gods handy work in the situation, and there will be days that God is silent, and we wonder why its taking so long! You start to question if all the heartache and pain while you wait for the answer is worth it. Let me encourage you... IT IS WORTH IT! Even if that answer is not what we want, God has a plan for everything! He has perfect timing for everything. He knows WHAT we need WHEN we need it! And He also sees our future and what it holds!!! And WHAT in our Future is BEST for us! So please keep praying! He hears you and has NOT forgotten about you! He loves us more then anything and wants nothing more then to bless His children and see us smile!!!!

I have posted this music video from the movie Facing the Giants! I can relate so much to it with the pain and the joy!! And i have to say if i would have to go through it ALL over again! I wouldn't Change a Thing! God has perfect Timing for EVERYTHING. Please Watch and be Blessed!!!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

"Keep Pushing! Stay Focused!"

WOW where do I start? So much has gone on lately with me! Lots of eye opening things! The meds I am on for fertility are working I am ovulating normally, which is a great thing for me! It makes me happy and gives me so much hope for the future of our family!!

The last few weeks I have just been thinking a lot about my past and future and how they are all tied together! How I have let certain things from my past dictate certain things for my future! I am super blessed to have a special spiritual mom in my life where she can be honest with me and push me into a direction I need to be going! She is able to tell me “Hey enough is enough it is time for a change!” I have so much going on in my life, not only trying to start a family.

This last weekend I went to a women’s conference and God spoke so clearly to me about certain things. And one of them I really wanted to share with you guys! Some of you know less then a year ago I started to “run” for exercise! I often have looked at runners outside and thought to myself "man I want to do that type of running and just get in that zone!" I began to run/walk! God knows I couldn’t just get out there and run for days! Jus doesn’t work that way! There is a process certain stretches to do before and after. You must learn the right breathing technique so you don’t collapse from not enough oxygen! Start slow and easy, You don’t want to get out there and take off in a sprint, because in NO time you will end up completely exhausted! Of course you need a good exercise plan to balance you out. Before this conference I looked at running as my stress reliever and something that was helping me get into shape and burn more calories. Little did I know God opened my eyes to something COMPLETELY different! My running was not just for exercise but it was a living example of how He wants me to live my life! I know you are probably making a weird face! LOL but let me explain! When I run my routine is to get into my work out clothes and then put on my running shoes, then stretch! Then I get my Iphone on worship music! When I start to run I really start worshiping Him! I get in that zone of it jus being me and Him! Its an amazing feeling! But there are days when I get out there and start running and I will get cramps or extra tired that day or distracted and it causes my running routine to mess up!

Well God started tell me that the routine of running is jus like my life! He wants me to push through all those emotions and distractions that will hit us in our everyday life or even when bad things come up from the past that will sometimes cause us to become out of breath! God wants us to keep running and stay focused!! He never said our road that we will travel will be easy! But he did say that he …“Anyone who drinks the water I give will never thirst—not ever. The water I give will be an artesian spring within, gushing fountains of endless life."(John 4:13) and “No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Joshua 1:5)

At the Conference a Video was shown and it spoke to my heart to strongly!! I posted it for u guys to see! Please watch it and be encouraged! And know that Our life is worth fighting for!!! Our Dreams are WORTH fighting for! Not to long ago I was ready to give up my dream of having a family! But I had a reminder that there is ONE person out there that comes to STEAL, KILL, and DESTROY! And that is Satan!! I am going to tell you right now that there is NO way I am going to let him steal ANY of my dreams and squash them, because God told me Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for GOOD and not for DISASTER, to give you a FUTURE and a HOPE”

The day I came home from that conference I had the urge to go out and run before it got dark! So I did and I even was pushed to add an extra block to my normal route. During that run I ended up getting some real bad side cramps, which I haven’t gotten in MONTHS! My husband was with me running and he kept asking if I was ok and I jus motioned to him lets keep going!
The only thing going through my mind was this pain hurts SO bad and it would be SO easy to stop running and walk the rest of the way back home. I kept pushing myself and I was probably 5 blocks from home when the pain increased and I felt like I had to stop and try to breath and stretch it out! So I did for jus a second and my husband asked again are you ok? Do we need to walk the rest of the way? And I said NO lets go! And even though I was still hurting my eyes were focused on my finish line! And at that point I was brought to tears because I felt the Lord speak to me and say “This is your life! It's worth fighting and running for! NEVER let go of the DREAMS I have given you as a YOUNG Girl!! Keep PUSHING! STAY FOCUSED it WILL be WORTH it!!” And I have to say no the pain did NOT go away But My husband kept telling me you are doing good ang keep going, come on you got this!! Finish Strong! You can make it, You are almost there! When I made it home and my finish line(which is ALWAYS my car in the drive way) I couldn’t even explain to you what kind of emotions went through my mind and filled my heart!! Let me tell you I could have easily dropped to my knees in Worship!

Please Whatever your situation is right now whether its difficulty becoming pregnant or family issues, work, or you have LEFT your dreams behind because it was getting to hard or looked unrealistic! Know that your race is WORTH Fighting! RUN with Excellence! You are a Child of the King!! Stay in the race. You are not alone! Your HOPES and DREAMS are worth it ALL!...I want to leave you with this, When you take away ALL your hopes and dreams what kind of life are you living? What do you have to live for?

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

“This isn’t a Set Back! But a Set UP for God to do Something Good!!”

Well where do I start on this one! About a 2 months back I went to my doctor visit and come to find out my insurance was terminated due to some paper work through Daniels work. So we did not have not have insurance to cover my treatments right now. Man when I heard those words it threw my back so far emotionally! Everything was goin through my mind of frustration and anger and fear! Main thought in my mind was “Man, all long we thought getting the insurance and coverage of treatments was a blessing! And our key to starting the family we have dreamed of! BUT that key was taken away in the matter of seconds!” I jus started treatment and it was working! My body was just getting regulated and I was ovulating! Now with out those treatments my body goes wackO and doesn’t ovulate.

So many Thoughts going on in my head! Just maybe this is God saying it is not my will for u to have a baby naturally! Which would completely break my heart! BUT I love God so much that whatever his will is that’s where I want to be! The pain of the thought of that hurts a lot! In my mind though I feel like I am at a fork in the road standing in such confusion! I am praying for Gods direction, cause if his will is for me and my hubby not to have children naturally I would LOVE to know so I can stop fighting and going through this pain, and be able to just move on with what ever his plan is for us!

I have been in a lot prayer lately about this and really just crying out to God and sharing with him everything on my heart and mind! During this time I have been rereading the story of Hannah and the other women in the bible that cried out to the Lord for a Baby!

During this time of prayer God has really been reminding of times he has truly spoke to me and Daniel about our future of having a family! One of the major things he has been reminding me of is a dream Daniel had a while ago! In this dream Daniel and I had an Egg and we couldn’t figure out how to hatch it! But God told Daniel we need to keep it covered! And the next morning our egg hatched! But there was something special about this egg the color of it was sparkly! Daniel and I never really completely understood the dream but we have been praying about it and we keep coming back to prayer and faith! That our egg needs to be covered in prayer and faith! With that our special gift will hatch! But the incubation period is SO important! I need to take care of my body and cover my womb in prayer and TRUST that GODS timing is PERFECT! And in Due Season I WILL hold my baby!

With ALL this said I ended up getting a special letter in the mail from Daniels job and it said that our appeal has been approved and I was back on his insurance!! We were so excited and relieved to know I will be able to go back to treatment! I looked at Daniel and I said WELL I guess we got our answer which is to keep going and fighting to have our family! I got scheduled treatment and was nervous because I knew they were goin to have to do some other procedures before putting me back on my meds! And I looked at Daniel and I said babe please tell me it will be worth it again! And he looked at me and “Said Babe it will be worth it! Our baby will be worth it!”

My life right now is TRULY a Long Rollercoaster ride!! And Latly it has made me Pretty nauseas! But I have gotten off for a min to breathe a lil and catch my breath and of course hold my tummy down! And During those breaks I have learned that every situation that I have come acrossed is NOT a set back BUT a Set up for God to do something Good! And All these lil bumps in the road are teaching and preparing me for His special Plan!! So with that said I am BACK on the Ride! And Riding in Style and Praising God Through it ALL!!

Mercy Me~ Bring the Rain
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain