Me and My One and Only!

Me and My One and Only!
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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

"Keep Pushing! Stay Focused!"

WOW where do I start? So much has gone on lately with me! Lots of eye opening things! The meds I am on for fertility are working I am ovulating normally, which is a great thing for me! It makes me happy and gives me so much hope for the future of our family!!

The last few weeks I have just been thinking a lot about my past and future and how they are all tied together! How I have let certain things from my past dictate certain things for my future! I am super blessed to have a special spiritual mom in my life where she can be honest with me and push me into a direction I need to be going! She is able to tell me “Hey enough is enough it is time for a change!” I have so much going on in my life, not only trying to start a family.

This last weekend I went to a women’s conference and God spoke so clearly to me about certain things. And one of them I really wanted to share with you guys! Some of you know less then a year ago I started to “run” for exercise! I often have looked at runners outside and thought to myself "man I want to do that type of running and just get in that zone!" I began to run/walk! God knows I couldn’t just get out there and run for days! Jus doesn’t work that way! There is a process certain stretches to do before and after. You must learn the right breathing technique so you don’t collapse from not enough oxygen! Start slow and easy, You don’t want to get out there and take off in a sprint, because in NO time you will end up completely exhausted! Of course you need a good exercise plan to balance you out. Before this conference I looked at running as my stress reliever and something that was helping me get into shape and burn more calories. Little did I know God opened my eyes to something COMPLETELY different! My running was not just for exercise but it was a living example of how He wants me to live my life! I know you are probably making a weird face! LOL but let me explain! When I run my routine is to get into my work out clothes and then put on my running shoes, then stretch! Then I get my Iphone on worship music! When I start to run I really start worshiping Him! I get in that zone of it jus being me and Him! Its an amazing feeling! But there are days when I get out there and start running and I will get cramps or extra tired that day or distracted and it causes my running routine to mess up!

Well God started tell me that the routine of running is jus like my life! He wants me to push through all those emotions and distractions that will hit us in our everyday life or even when bad things come up from the past that will sometimes cause us to become out of breath! God wants us to keep running and stay focused!! He never said our road that we will travel will be easy! But he did say that he …“Anyone who drinks the water I give will never thirst—not ever. The water I give will be an artesian spring within, gushing fountains of endless life."(John 4:13) and “No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Joshua 1:5)

At the Conference a Video was shown and it spoke to my heart to strongly!! I posted it for u guys to see! Please watch it and be encouraged! And know that Our life is worth fighting for!!! Our Dreams are WORTH fighting for! Not to long ago I was ready to give up my dream of having a family! But I had a reminder that there is ONE person out there that comes to STEAL, KILL, and DESTROY! And that is Satan!! I am going to tell you right now that there is NO way I am going to let him steal ANY of my dreams and squash them, because God told me Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for GOOD and not for DISASTER, to give you a FUTURE and a HOPE”

The day I came home from that conference I had the urge to go out and run before it got dark! So I did and I even was pushed to add an extra block to my normal route. During that run I ended up getting some real bad side cramps, which I haven’t gotten in MONTHS! My husband was with me running and he kept asking if I was ok and I jus motioned to him lets keep going!
The only thing going through my mind was this pain hurts SO bad and it would be SO easy to stop running and walk the rest of the way back home. I kept pushing myself and I was probably 5 blocks from home when the pain increased and I felt like I had to stop and try to breath and stretch it out! So I did for jus a second and my husband asked again are you ok? Do we need to walk the rest of the way? And I said NO lets go! And even though I was still hurting my eyes were focused on my finish line! And at that point I was brought to tears because I felt the Lord speak to me and say “This is your life! It's worth fighting and running for! NEVER let go of the DREAMS I have given you as a YOUNG Girl!! Keep PUSHING! STAY FOCUSED it WILL be WORTH it!!” And I have to say no the pain did NOT go away But My husband kept telling me you are doing good ang keep going, come on you got this!! Finish Strong! You can make it, You are almost there! When I made it home and my finish line(which is ALWAYS my car in the drive way) I couldn’t even explain to you what kind of emotions went through my mind and filled my heart!! Let me tell you I could have easily dropped to my knees in Worship!

Please Whatever your situation is right now whether its difficulty becoming pregnant or family issues, work, or you have LEFT your dreams behind because it was getting to hard or looked unrealistic! Know that your race is WORTH Fighting! RUN with Excellence! You are a Child of the King!! Stay in the race. You are not alone! Your HOPES and DREAMS are worth it ALL!...I want to leave you with this, When you take away ALL your hopes and dreams what kind of life are you living? What do you have to live for?